• AnonymousDon't be sorry for being absent from the web! Your health comes first! Get well <3
  • Thanks, friend!

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My spine sprung a leak so I was back in the hospital today getting that patched up with my own blood. Turns out that’s way more painful than the spinal tap itself. Very exciting. They tell me I’ll recover in another day or two. Sorry, everyone.

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Everyone has been so sweet. Thank you for your kind messages. I still can’t really sit up or move much but I’m told the procedure went very smoothly and I don’t seem to have any major complications. Trying to recover as quickly as possible. It’s very boring just lying here with my phone. Love you all.

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  • anywhere-is-better-than-hereI had to look up what spinal taps are for and...I just hope it's not serious. Feel better.
  • Thanks. It isn’t life-threatening or anything. About a month and a half ago I lost some feeling in the left side of my body and we initially thought it might have been a stroke (I have a genetic blood disorder that predisposes me to clots) but an MRI showed possible multiple sclerosis, and this LP is meant to confirm that diagnosis. tl;dr serious but not deadly

    On that note, I’m awake now but not mobile. Hi, everyone!

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Just a general notice to my readers: I’m going in for a spinal tap tomorrow morning. It may or may not affect 187's updates for the next few days. There's a chance I won't be able to sit upright until my cerebrospinal fluid replenishes, and I'll probably want to be unconscious as much as possible because I'm told it's very painful. So! There's that. Thanks for your patience.

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  • enboutonFor the writing meme: 15, 20, 29, 35, 46?
  • 15:What would you say has inspired you the most? I don’t know about “the most”, but… My life, first of all. My writing isn’t autobiographical but a lot of my experiences end up in there, in an abstracted sense. Writing is a little therapeutic for me. There are a lot of things I’m trying to understand about people I’ve known and things that have happened to me, which I end up working out in writing characters that are like those people. My husband often points to things I’ve written and says, “This is really about so-and-so, isn’t it?” And he’s not wrong. But stylistically, I think there’s a lot of noir film in there, a lot of mystery and horror. And music does so much for me. Everything has a soundtrack.

    20:What’s your favorite writing program? I love ZenWriter a lot, but lately I’m just writing in Google Drive so that I can hop from my computer to my iPad whenever I want.

    29:Which do you find easiest: writing or editing? Everything is torture. I just want to get the thing out of my head and into its finished, readable state as fast as possible.

    35:What’s your favorite time of day for writing? When everything in the world is completely silent, from around three in the morning to dawn.

    46:Describe your perfect writing space. My family’s home in Greece. It’s been years since I’ve been able to go back, but it’s a quaint little house a block from the Gulf of Corinth, and my favorite thing is to sit out on the wraparound porch with my laptop and my frappé and simply write for hours without the internet or people or anything to distract me. There’s something about the air there.

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  • 01:When did you first start writing? I wrote my first novella when I was 9, which was about a hundred standard word processor pages, though I can’t remember how many words. It was a ghost story about a girl who died in an orphanage fire. Nearly got published, too.

    02:What was your favorite book growing up? It’s hard to pick a favorite. I was very into horror series, so I read a lot of R.L. Stine and Stephen King and Anne Rice. Approaching adolescence, I was absolutely obsessed with Elizabeth Hand’s Winterlong.

    08:What’s the best piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten? “Less is more.”

    10:What’s your biggest writer pet-peeve? Long exposition given in the prose rather than allowing it to come through organically as the story plays out. It happens sometimes by necessity, but I always think it’s best to show rather than tell, so I get a bit annoyed if I’m sitting there reading paragraph upon paragraph of such-and-such is happening because of so-and-so that did something way back whenever. The reader doesn’t always have to know everything. Sometimes a little mystery is a good thing. On the flip side, though, there are fun ways to play with long exposition, like Susanna Clarke’s handling of footnotes in Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell. So it all depends.

    12:Who is your favorite author? Haruki Murakami. Holy hell, what an amazing storyteller.

    21:Do you outline? I outline so much. I like to know every major beat in a story so I can get my pacing right. I’m not chained to the outline, though. If something begins to unfold in the telling, I’ll move things around or change them altogether.

    24:What’s your favorite & least favorite part of plotting? I don’t really know how to answer this. Plots come to me intuitively. I’m mostly letting the characters run around and tell me what to put on the page, so it doesn’t feel like something I’m working at. My process mostly involves me getting stoned and listening to music at ass o’clock in the morning, jotting things down when I see something cool in the movie that’s playing in my head. I guess the tricky part is knowing your characters well enough that you can let the muse run loose but not go off the rails.

    27:Which is your favorite genre to write? Drama. I can’t narrow it down much further than that, because I like crime and horror and slice-of-life and touches of sci-fi and fantasy all rolled up. All I know is that I’m not much of a comedy writer. Even my humor is so dark it’s pitch black.

    37:What’s your oldest WIP? Machine Flower. I wrote it as a novel when I was 12 (and I’m almost 30 now), then I made it a webcomic, and now I’m toying with it as a novel again. Sometimes it feels like I’ll never be finished with it.

    48:If you could write the next book of any series, which one would it be, and what would you make the book about? I’m so into writing about Breaking Bad right now that it’s hard to think about anything else. I want to play in this world for as long as I can. It isn’t a book series, even, but that’s where I’m at. And my next fic picks up at the end of Felina, so! That’s all I’m saying.

    49:If you could write a collaboration with another author, who would it be and what would you write about? Me and metonymph have a good repartee, I feel like. I bet we could write something that’s a nice balance of devastating and hilarious. She’s really fantastic.

    50:If you could live in any fictional world, which would it be? His Dark Materials. I want a daemon.

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✍ Finally, an ask-meme for writers! ✍

  • 01:When did you first start writing?
  • 02:What was your favorite book growing up?
  • 03:Are you an avid reader?
  • 04:Have you ever thrown a book across the room?
  • 05:Did you take writing courses in school/college?
  • 06:Have you read any writing-advice books?
  • 07:Have you ever been part of a critique group?
  • 08:What’s the best piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten?
  • 09:What’s the worst piece of feedback you’ve ever gotten?
  • 10:What’s your biggest writer pet-peeve?
  • 11:What’s your favorite book cover?
  • 12:Who is your favorite author?
  • 13:What’s your favorite writing quote?
  • 14:What’s your favorite writing blog? c;
  • 15:What would you say has inspired you the most?
  • 16:How do you feel about movies based on books?
  • 17:Would you like your books to be turned into TV shows, movies, video games, or none?
  • 18:How do you feel about love triangles?
  • 19:Do you prefer writing on a computer or longhand?
  • 20:What’s your favorite writing program?
  • 21:Do you outline?
  • 22:Do you start with characters or plot?
  • 23:What’s your favorite & least favorite part of making characters?
  • 24:What’s your favorite & least favorite part of plotting?
  • 25:What advice would you give to young writers?
  • 26:Which do you enjoy reading the most: physical, ebook, or both?
  • 27:Which is your favorite genre to write?
  • 28:Which do you find hardest: the beginning, the middle, or the end?
  • 29:Which do you find easiest: writing or editing?
  • 30:Have you ever written fan-fiction?
  • 31:Have you ever been published?
  • 32:How do you feel about friends and close relatives reading your work?
  • 33:Are you interested in having your work published?
  • 34:Describe your writing space.
  • 35:What’s your favorite time of day for writing?
  • 36:Do you listen to music when you write?
  • 37:What’s your oldest WIP?
  • 38:What’s your current WIP?
  • 39:What’s the weirdest story idea you’ve ever had?
  • 40:Which is your favorite original character, and why?
  • 41:What do you do when characters don’t follow the outline?
  • 42:Do you enjoy making your characters suffer?
  • 43:Have you ever killed a main character?
  • 44:What’s the weirdest character concept you’ve ever come up with?
  • 45:What’s your favorite character name?
  • 46:Describe your perfect writing space.
  • 47:If you could steal one character from another author and make then yours, who would it be and why?
  • 48:If you could write the next book of any series, which one would it be, and what would you make the book about?
  • 49:If you could write a collaboration with another author, who would it be and what would you write about?
  • 50:If you could live in any fictional world, which would it be?
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Finally solved the mystery of my disappearing posts. I guess one of my music posts corrupted the entire theme for some reason. But everything is working now that I deleted it! Good sleuthing, me.

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  • Anonymousnone of your posts are showing on your blog. are they all on private?
  • Thaaaat should not be happening. Something weird is going on but I’m on my phone so I’ll have to take a look later.

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  • anywhere-is-better-than-hereIf I were writing 187 I probably would have given up before chapter 10. Big kudos to you for taking on such an ambitious project and congratulations on being so close to finishing. :)
  • Thank you so much, friend! The easiest way to not give up is to just put in your time every day and not think about the big number. I forced myself to write at least 200 words a day… which would sometimes end up being a thousand! And maybe one day’s work would turn out complete trash because I was exhausted or something, but that’s what revisions are for. Give yourself a good buffer to work with if you’ve got a release schedule so meeting your daily goal isn’t any stress at all. Then you’re golden! ♥

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  • AnonymousWhy r u so amazing?
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Again, I’m afraid I don’t want to say too much about Jack’s motivation, but I agree with many of the points you’ve made. I’m going to have to leave it there, for fear of spoiling the people who do intend to finish the story.

Other scattered notes: 

  • White supremacist gangs frequently brand their slaves, and when Ozymandias aired, people posted screencaps of what looked like swastika-shaped blood stains on Jesse’s shirt. I ran with it.
  • There’s not much I can say about your personal dislike for the use of Stockholm Syndrome in fiction. To each their own. But I will say that a lot of Jesse’s behaviors and delusions come from what I’ve observed in my own life and victims of abuse that I’ve personally encountered, as well as what we’ve seen of his own desperation and search for approval throughout the series itself. To call it fanservice skirts on offensive to me, so I’m leaving it there.
  • I find Jesse’s empathy to be what really makes Jesse Jesse, and maybe we disagree there. But there you have the core I’m operating around in this particular story, with regards to what changes and what remains of his personality. My Jesse is fighting these people in the best way he knows how, which involves clinging to his humanism as much as it involves his insolence.
  • I’m sure I have many critics out there, only a handful of whom have or will come forth with a critique. Many people like this story and I’m grateful to all of them. I’m also grateful to the people who tried it and found that it wasn’t for them. I never presumed to deliver something that everyone would like, particularly in choosing such a controversial point in canon to work from. All I can say is thanks for reading, and thanks for your feedback and your commitment, for however long it lasted.
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