Hmmmm… Well, 187 is essentially a first draft. I didn’t have a beta and I only gave each chapter one or two passes (mostly for grammatical errors or typos) before posting it. My buffer wasn’t so great that I was ever fifty chapters ahead and could check storyline threads for coherency. So mostly I’d just make it less confusing for readers. To some extent, the confusion was intentional within the narrative, but some people had trouble following the reveal in the last chapter and that shouldn’t be the case. It’s a structure issue on my end.
Overall, I’m pretty happy with the rest of it. Sometimes I think about what it might have been like to write it from a third-person omniscient perspective instead of third-person subjective - which is to say, I think it would’ve been interesting to get into Todd and Lydia and Jack’s heads in addition to Jesse’s. I’m sure that would have solved a lot of the clarity issues, too. That would be a pretty different story, though. Less of a horror story, and it would alter the entire format I set out to experiment with. But who knows. Maybe it’d be a better story?
The sequel actually is written in third-person omniscient so that might be a lot of the reason I’m having so much fun with it.
Oh! Well, I reblog like crazy and panatheist where all of that stuff goes, so this blog can stay mostly related to the stuff I make myself and it doesn’t get too cluttered for people who are just following me for that.
As far as avoiding stuff that has a similar premise, I’ve never been that worried about it? I outline my fics so tightly from the very start that there’s no chance I’ll see something later and accidentally lift a whole plot from someone else, because I’ve already got mine in place, even if it takes me six months to complete the story itself.
Beyond that, I’m not worried about “stealing ideas” in general. Vince Gilligan himself said he’d never have written Breaking Bad if he’d been aware of Weeds, which… Can you imagine what a fucking tragedy that’d be? Yeah, the premise is similar on paper, but the execution makes all the difference in the world. I think that extends to just about everything.
No one else would have taken the premise of 187 and written it the way I did, because I came at the material with my entire history and my style and my interpretation of events and all these things that someone else couldn’t possibly have mimicked. Someone else could write the same plot right now and I wouldn’t be the least bit worried or offended, because their execution isn’t going to be the same as mine, and it’s going to be wholly valid and fascinating in its own way.
Basically: plot is just plot. It has nothing to do with the soul of the story. I’ve already read a bunch of post-Felina fic over the past year and I’m sure elements of them are still rattling around and influencing me as I’m writing this sequel. But I just don’t sweat it. A writer can end up crippled if they worry about that stuff too much, and then they get nothing done at all and that’s the biggest tragedy. Je refuse!
tumblr’s fucking up or something, because I’m missing whatever the first part of this ask was!
My personal feeling… I don’t think there could have possibly been a more effective rehab for Jesse than going through what he’s been through. Whatever his new life is, I can’t see him wanting it to look anything like his old one. He’s leaving that entire world behind him. Nothing’s more important to him than self-determination at this point, and he can’t steer his life in a new direction if he’s getting high. Of course, he’s an addict and the temptation will always be there on some level when he’s feeling down. But I believe he has the strength to remind himself that, whatever happens, he’s lived through worse and he can get through it without self-medicating.
I’m just really happy with how this fic is going and I can’t wait for everyone to read it.
Wow, thank you so much! (I was wondering if that translation ever ended up happening… I guess it did!) Your work is really beautiful and I’d love to do a trade sometime.